Your First Love

Do you mind if I ask you something ….

When you’re with me

Do you still think of her?

Do you still remember the way she smelled?
Do you still remember how she looked?
Can you still remember how she felt?

When you’re with me…..

Sometimes I catch this dullness in your eyes

The spark that was there a moment ago
….Dissipating

As if you’re lamenting over what could have been?
As if brooding over a life you could have had….

Had you not let her slip away.

So tell me my love

Do you still think of her?

Your first love?

Is she still to you
               what you are to me?

I Never Thought

I never thought.

After years of dealing with this hole
Where my heart once stood
I would find myself searching –
again

To find the lost pieces
That have wandered into the abyss

I never thought.

Because I did stop searching.
Stopped looking.
For my heart.
For the one.

Because it only took one
To create a galactic explosion
That eviscerated my hopes:
Of forever
Of true love

But I find myself

…staring into your eyes
searching for my lost pieces…

I know they’re here –

If you would lend me your hands
I know I can find my missing heart

Because
When I look into your eyes

I remember

love

Two Souls Still in Love

Priya Kumar

She looked so beautiful in her midnight blue dress.

Her lips parted, eyes glistening under the incandescent lights — as she waited for my response.
And in that moment, I almost lost my resolve.
This woman that sat in front of me,
I had once loved fiercely;
but I knew I was here to do one thing —

Break her heart.

As if she realized that there would be no happy ending.
The tears welled.
Pooling. Spilling.

Each drop was her soul crying for the lost dreams —
This tear held the sadness of kids we talked about but we would never have.
This tear…was the white picket fence.
Oh, and this tear?
Was the dream of forever.

And as each dream fell from her soul.
She squared her shoulders and braced herself for the inevitable.

We had tried.
This past year had been all about trying.

To fix. To move on. To have the future we always wanted.

But somewhere we realized that there was too much hurt
and not enough love to save us.
And the worst part of this realization?

Two broken souls
Still in love with each other
Having to say goodbye to our dreams of happily..ever…after

I’m sorry, I said.
We tried, but it just wasn’t enough.

She looked away, as the tears spilled.
My first instinct was to pull this woman of my dreams into my arms.
But she knew any touch would break,
would shatter her –
She stood up.

Looked me in the eyes and said

             You will always be my dream.

And like that she was gone.

Now all I can do is repent my mistakes
that led to the demise of our relationship.
And curse the universe for still loving her.

I would hope he had felt that way when he stood there staring me in the eyes at dinner, breaking my heart. When my engagement fell apart, and I had lost the one I thought was the love of my life… How the heart heals – its beautiful. For you KB; may you find happiness – always.