She looked so beautiful in her midnight blue dress.
Her lips parted, eyes glistening under the incandescent lights — as she waited for my response.
And in that moment, I almost lost my resolve.
This woman that sat in front of me,
I had once loved fiercely;
but I knew I was here to do one thing —
Break her heart.
As if she realized that there would be no happy ending.
The tears welled.
Each drop was her soul crying for the lost dreams —
This tear held the sadness of kids we talked about but we would never have.
This tear…was the white picket fence.
Oh, and this tear?
Was the dream of forever.
And as each dream fell from her soul.
She squared her shoulders and braced herself for the inevitable.
We had tried.
This past year had been all about trying.
To fix. To move on. To have the future we always wanted.
But somewhere we realized that there was too much hurt
and not enough love to save us.
And the worst part of this realization?
Two broken souls
Still in love with each other
Having to say goodbye to our dreams of happily..ever…after
I’m sorry, I said.
We tried, but it just wasn’t enough.
She looked away, as the tears spilled.
My first instinct was to pull this woman of my dreams into my arms.
But she knew any touch would break,
would shatter her –
She stood up.
Looked me in the eyes and said
You will always be my dream.
And like that she was gone.
Now all I can do is repent my mistakes
that led to the demise of our relationship.
And curse the universe for still loving her.
I would hope he had felt that way when he stood there staring me in the eyes at dinner, breaking my heart. When my engagement fell apart, and I had lost the one I thought was the love of my life… How the heart heals – its beautiful. For you KB; may you find happiness – always.